Today an update in English! I promised friends in Italy that I would write some texts in English, that makes it easier for them to understand :-) Maybe it is not the right moment to write an update, I feel sad today.

The morning started white and cold. Our room isn't well insulated and that makes getting up a bit harder. I wanted to do my cycling training outdoors, there are some days that you have to go outside and feel the fresh air, even when you know that it's better to stay in.

I took my panty-hose (tip from team mate Marijn), extra warm socks, my Leontien.nl winter clothes, three thermo shirts and hoped that it was enough to keep me warm. My cross bike felt strange, I'm so used to my racing bike that every other bike feels strange. I stepped out of the door and almost fell against the wall, ok, it is slippery!

But I wanna go, so I will go!! The cold on my face is hurting, the world is white, the sky is grey. I take a deep breath and let the wind empty my head, it doesn't help. I just feel sad. I don't feel my fingers anymore, I don't care. Unfortunately there is a point that you do feel them again and then they hurt!! A lot!! I need to go home…